{"id":517,"date":"2015-01-31T14:01:02","date_gmt":"2015-01-31T12:01:02","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/hbne.co.il?p=517"},"modified":"2019-11-05T14:02:02","modified_gmt":"2019-11-05T12:02:02","slug":"in-auras-wake","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/hbne.co.il\/?p=517","title":{"rendered":"In Aura's Wake"},"content":{"rendered":"
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She is gone. Only her essence remains.\u200e<\/h2>\n

I am a perfectionist; this much has been said about me, many a time. \u200eIn my eyes I see a mess (\u201cbalagan\u201d) and a big one at that. \u200ePerfectionism and disorder: not exactly close matches to any degree! \u200eI must be a cross breed of the two\u2026\u200e<\/p>\n

Perfectionism, yes, I can relate to that. As a Business Intelligence \u200econsultant I demand strict organization and order: each data record \u200eneeds to be stored such that its retrieval will be optimal, orderly and \u200eaccessible. As a matter of fact, it has been said that the OLAP (On-\u200eLine Analytical Processing) models which I build represent \u200eorganizational excellence above and beyond those of coworkers. And \u200eyet, in spite of this, at home chaos is my norm. It is difficult to believe \u200ethat we are speaking about the same person\u2026\u200e<\/p>\n

Perfectionism.<\/h3>\n

I can lose myself while editing a graphic, video or text; \u200ealways managing to find yet another small detail which can be edited \u200eto perfection. Good is not good enough; I command excellence! \u200eCurrently I find myself studying yet another realm, editing texts for my \u200ewebsite, writing blogs and teaching Nia weekly, always surface deep, \u200enever tackling deep down.\u200e<\/p>\n

How I do love to tap into my creative inspiration!<\/strong> I can\u2019t just write a \u200estory; it has to be a story which interconnects to another thread. I don\u2019t \u200ewant to \u201cpaint\u201d just another painting but rather to create a composition \u200ewith power and depth. I love creatively finding the web which connects the \u200evisuals with the stories and with the message.\u200e<\/p>\n

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Somewhere, somehow, at some level,
\nI find that my life is a \u200e\u200e\u200ebig production \u200e\u200e\u200eand I am the director.<\/h2>\n

At any given moment in my mind you \u200ewill find me perched on the sidelines recording the events, collecting \u200ematerials, photos and ideas for a book, collage or autobiography. As \u200eof yet I have amassed an enormous amount of material. Surely it is \u200eenough?<\/p>\n

\u200e\u200e\u200eI should begin before it is too late\u2026<\/p>\n

\u200e\u200e\u200eYou want to be the one who leads enthralling workshops combining an \u200eeclectic mix of nutrition, chutzpa and movement?\u200e<\/p>\n

How can I lead a workshop when I don\u2019t know all of the answers? I will \u200enever stop evolving and growing. There will always be a question \u200ewhich I will not have the answer for. Let\u2019s face it; I will never know all \u200eof the answers.<\/p>\n

There are things (and many at that) which I don\u2019t know \u200eand that is ok. Hey self, did you hear that? It is ok! It is important to let \u200emy message out. It is of immense value and it is time to allow it out \u200einto the world.\u200e<\/p>\n

\u200eI can do it! Like my daughter Sivan says, I am a perfectionist. Like my \u200ehusband says, free yourself!\u200e
\n\u200e\u200e\u200eTo everything there is a season; it is my season for change.<\/p>\n

\u200e\u200e\u200eThe \u200edecorations can wait!<\/p>\n

Consider yourselves forewarned! \u200e
\nGood food is addictive. \u200e
\nDance frees the soul. \u200e
\nChutzpah? \u200e
\nWith chutzpah one never knows!
\nIt's dangerous, very dangerous to your health!\u200e<\/h3>\n
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