?Happy Holidays

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Holidays, a time for festivities, celebrations and happy ‎memories are they not? Peach, Passover, The Festival of Freedom ‎evokes mixed feelings for me.‎.. My parents grew up in New York City stifled between extended family ‎and a close knit community. They chose to seek their freedom ‎elsewhere and fled west.

Bulldozer

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Yes, I married a mechanic. Is it not fortunate that he married a ‎bulldozer like me!‎ There’s a mission? I am your woman. I will plan, coordinate, manage, ‎organize, build and put together my own one woman show. Once ‎when one of our children was having problems at school, the

Ox Olé

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Befriending My Pain Each new pain was a challenge. I would take a deep breath as I promised myself: “I can learn to live with yet another trespasser.” Pain’s path was relentlessly intimate, bold and breathless. I was rendered helpless as it laced itself tautly to the width and breadth

Mirror Mirror

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One day, out of the blue, a stranger, that you literally just met, speaks these words of praise to ‎you:‎ ‎‎“You, as your name*, radiate light and authenticity, your smile and your facial expressions emit faith of your pursuit of Nia and of a natural lifestyle: it shines from your

Against All Odds

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On the wall these words were boldly splattered: “After 3 years… Boten (Peanut) has been ‎found!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!‎" Just like that, against all odds, our daughter’s dog magically reappeared. Three long years, without so much as ‎a sign of life from her, came to a joyous end.‎ There are moments which are

Death to Diet

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When Obesity Met Diabetes in a Bottle… Happy New Year!‎ Happy New Year! May this be the year that you live your dream!‎ Yes, this is the year that I say goodbye to the bulge! I’ve got just ‎the right bottle, a “classic”, “the real thing”. Raise your glass and let’s ‎toast

The Black Bash

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Giving Thanks Thanksgiving: once again another season of festivities is upon us. The more fortunate amongst us gather round a swollen holiday table and give thanks for abundant bounty. With too many appetizing dishes to choose from, most give in to the tantalizing colorful aromas and overindulge. Black Friday The

C U

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Doctor’s Orders Never was I given an ultimatum to go under the knife. The surgeon proposed cervical fusion ‎to relieve pressure on my spinal cord. He hinted that surgical intervention may indeed break ‎the blanket of pain and curtail my anguish. But then again, he heartily declared that there ‎was

When I Am Big

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Yesterday I came home from a short visit abroad. While traveling the depth and breadth of ‎North America, I could not help but be impressed by the enormous sizes: the spaces, trees, ‎mountains, people and plate portions. Does “Super Size Me” ring a bell? ‎ The combination of the super

I was a Dancer

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I was a dancer long before I learned my first step. My dance went something like this: One two three, One two three, Four, five, six, Seven, eight, ninety nine, How many more loads are there for me? Slow, slow, quick, quick, Not so slow, quicker, quick, More fosters more,

Cheezing

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Why Milk?‎ Honestly, I never understood the connection between dairy products ‎and the Shavuot (Pentecost‎) holiday. Exactly how did the celebration ‎of the Torah (The Five Books of Moses) become a festival of milk and ‎honey? Out of curiosity I began to surf the web in an effort to get

Curveball

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By definition a bulldozer is a powerhouse of strength and can ‎obliterate any obstacle in its path. Although the “fortunate” ‎agile souls will avoid injury, casualties are to be expected. ‎The primary victim, however, will always be the poor ‎unfortunate sole who believed that his shield of armor ‎would protect

An Affair With Hair

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Thirty four years of marriage. What does that say about me? That I am ‎old?!‎ Admittedly my memory is patchy but occasionally clear images ‎surface. I recall my mother’s thirtieth birthday (or it may have been ‎her fortieth…). ‎‎‎Etched in my memory are my mother’s ‎disappointment, dread and depression: the

Whole Hearts

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Holes, My memory is full of holes: Intermittent and fleeting, Its ‎imprints wanting and lonely. From time to time, I remember sporadic details, fragmented events, ‎pieces, always pieces: the puzzle is incomplete. It is a challenging task ‎to piece the memories together and retrieve a reliable narrative. ‎For example, I

A Man's Plot

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“Feminism: a clever design for men. I believe that feminism was a ‎male initiative. Together with bra burning it is doubly good” (both the ‎load being shared and the bras being burned); my beloved’s ‎noteworthy words to share this week. ‎ Some more morsels around the same subject: “You were

Good Morning Greens

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Good morning!‎ ‎‎‎Can I offer you a green smoothie?‎ ‎‎‎Silence. Good morning!‎ ‎‎‎Can I offer you a green smoothie?‎ ‎‎‎Not on my life!‎ Morning!‎ Would you like a glass?‎ My treat!‎ ‎‎‎What’s inside?‎ She inquired with suspicion. Fruit,‎‎veggies, ‎‎ green leaves,‎ ‎‎‎Nature’s gifts, ‎Certain to please!‎ Well ok,‎ I will